That email sent on Jan 27, 2008

I feel like i know myself better now and i finally know what my priorities are. I also think reaching out to peopleis a lot easier now that my confused self is gone and i am glad for right now, i can breathe freely.. it was like a lump of ice has been taken away from within. My previous entries are all about confusion and serious personality crisis.. m so proud to say that this entry is an offspring from positive aura. Thanks to the email sent yesterday (Sunday, Jan 27) by a good friend of mine.. an angel.. I realized that the dream i was seeking was beautiful but fictitious.. and too idealistic to actually be concrete in this stained reality. I figured why should i follow that fictional dream when the real thing is so much better even with its ups and downs.. Why should i sacrifice those who love me for those who won't even give a damn even if a ten-wheeler truck would end my existence..?! I have awakened and all i need to do is to go back home for i was lost.. I just hope i can find a way to do so and that opportune moments are still at hand when i get home. If not, at least i will just try.. After all.. not doing what should be done whether it is right or not.. in other words, not doing things right, is one of the things i consider as wrong in this lifetime.