HOLY MOTHER of GOD.....dess..!

I don't have plans to post something on my blogsh*t today but i happen to see these behind-the-scenes pixes of my idol Anne Curtis playing the lead role in Abs-Cbn's DYOSA airing every night on primetime and it is a sinful thing to do if i won't have these pixes posted right away.. My jaw drops.. (na-lalaki jud q ai.. atut oi..! unsa naman ni oi.. d best ka Carms.. mag-tsur ta.. babaye ba jud kaha ka noh?) She definitely is not my sexiest because that spot has been claimed by Devon Aoki (the Jap DOA chic) and she is not the gorgeous woman ever because that word only describe Jessica Alba.. Anne however is a versatile actress but versatility wise, she can't go neck to neck with Jennifer Love Hewitt because the latter also has the voice aside from acting and dancing plus, she directs (Ghost Whisperer rocks!).. Anne is pretty yep, no doubt but face wise, Eugene Kim has the perfect features.. hands down please..! Still, Anne has got these magnetic churva that can't be seen in all those 'myfave hotties' i mentioned. I simply love her. How I cried when I saw her crying over that jerk Sam Milby because the loser decided to end their exclusively dating ish..!


Anne on Sam (what she has to say regarding their breakUp - she really defends that jerk-0)

To Anne:

Ayaw hilak2x anang panuway na Sam oi, ipabarang na nako, wait and see.. magsuka jud na xa ug insects one of these days.. gwapa, talented, smart.. in short, nice ra kau ka para maghilak-hilak ug laki na murag giatay, wala kakita sa imo value. (Putaa ka Sam! I hope you rot in hell..) Padayon lang sa pag-focus sa career Dyosa.. imo mga die hard na fans kay magpaluyo ra kanunay, usa nako ana.. bow!

-THE OH MY GODDESS PIXES-

(Anne wearing her costume for Dyosa Cielo, one of her Dyosa charaters in Dyosa)

People like the Goddess to descend and save everyone but after seeing Anne in Dyosa, I say that the Goddess already descends from Heaven............

FOR THAT SPECIAL GUY..

"..even if i don't act that you are special, know that you are.. you really are, more than what you think.. how my whole being soars high each time you say those words.. how i longed to say that i feel the same.. but i can't right now.. will you wait for me.. can you wait even if it will take you a lifetime?"

With each call i take at work, my thoughts are with you..
With each song i sing, my heart sings for you..
With each smile i make, my soul i give to you..
With each tear, my being cries out for you..
With each step i take, my hope is to reach you..
With each breath i breathe, i pray to be with you..
With each heartbeat, i see the reason why i live..
And i live only for you.

"For me, you are very rare..
I wish you'll find me again in the next lifetime and once again will say vows of love to me,
Yes, i feel for you.. what i am saying is i think iloveYoutoo."

bREAk uP bruise or bREAk uP news?

"they say that breaking up is hard to do.."

And there goes that song.. Yeah, it is true. It is hard to break up with someone you are in love with but it is harder to break up with someone who is deeply in love with you. Why? Because you feel like you are the bad guy, the devil who steals his soul..

Break time today and i find myself get stuck with one of the sms in my inbox as i am doing some scanning. "ayaw ko e let go please" I feel the pain in that message. Who am I to have caused someone this kind of sorrow? I don't know how i am feeling as my eyes get glued on my cellphones' screen. I don't want to lead someone on but i am afraid to make a mistake. But then again, when is following your heart a mistake? Is it when everyone else is telling you indirectly that he is your Mr Right? What is the definition of Mr. Right by the way? Mine is, he is that person who falls like a rock for you and you are towards him too.. but their definition of Mr. Right is that someone who loves you more than life itself, who could give you everything life has to offer even if you just view him as your brother. What a pity if that is the very definition of Mr. Right. Better just label him as Mr. 2nd Father then. duh!! My heart aches as I read sms from him because I know I do not deserve this kind of love and attention because I just don't have any special feelings towards him anymore.. I have prayed as I was going home riding a bus earlier this morning that he may somehow find that someone who deserves all the love he has to give because his love is everything a girl could wish for! I have made ready a short letter for him.. and i plan to give this to him before he sails again..

"Sometimes, you find out what you wanted is not really what you need..
And the dream with its promise was never meant to be..
You believe the nightmare will never pass..
But I say this.. in time it does..
You'll find a way to start again..
You'll someday realize this pain is only a moment in time..
and when it happens, i'll be smiling as I see you so happy
and is having everything you need in life
while regarding me as only an instrument for you to become a better man..
And while you are with that special girl who is really for you..
You will be silently saying a prayer of thanks to HIM and to me."

Yes, he is a guy who could sweep you off your feet and offer you moon and morning sunshine but I am just not the girl for him. I hope I can find my Mr. Right... I hope he is one of the frogs who happens to drop by at this point in time for 'waiting period' is slowly creeping into that 'in vain department'.. I hope one of them turns out to be my Prince for I have encountered many frogs who in the end, ended up as frogs still... what a pity.. good Lord, have mercy.. please don't let my heart sing ocean deep..

(love, can't you hear when i call?
can't you hear a word i say..
a lil love, is all i ask..
a lil feeling when you go...)

KALAG-KALAG 2008

Kalag-kalag...... Why do we have to celebrate when this day comes? Because the living should remember the dead because someday soon, we will be 6 feet under just like them.. haha! I was so happy on that day because I was able to catch up with my gossip... joke! I was happy because nakalaag ko..:) coz i seldom make laag and all that churva...... I spent that day with some of my cousies - Berlang, Blessie, Jules, Kuya Johnny etc.... but after midnight 'till morning, I spent my whole entire time with one of my beloved bitches.. Phoebe Tinks:) I could never forget that moment when I made that dare thingy for her crush-ness.. hihi.. We were talking about one of my ex's because I like her and my ex to somehow end up together..weird me.. haha.. and i noticed that she always made glimpses to that grave na medyo far for someone like me na hap to see... so i asked her.. Our conversation went like this..

Carmelle: Mybitch, kinsa imo gitan-aw oist?
Phoebe: ang tawo na ako crush dri sa catmon..

C: Huh?! Asa ana ba?
P: Kana gud ga-topless..
C: Hala oi.. wala jud koi nakita ai..
P: Nag-guitar.. Wala jud xai pakialam sa mga tawo mybitch, sa iya ra jud guitar..
C: (finally seeing the guy she is speaking of) Ai.. kana xa.. hhmm.. naa pa ka pag-asa ana oi.. dako kau
P: Nah Wiks, di jud ko ana nia tagdon.. quebs ra..
C: Seryoso sa uyab? Hmmm... ma-test kuno beh.. dare??? (i joked.. pero gikubit aq pwen.. haha)
P: Oh? (I smiled devilishly and went away..)
C: baga baya jud kog dagway.. ka-dare jud ko especially if d nako crush (and then i went to where the guy is at.. leaving mybitch behind watching my every move..)

7 or so minutes after, i received a msg from mybitch saying "Wiks, come back already.." It was a very big effort for me not to laugh (aguuyy!! gaselos aq best bitch.. haha!!) So i bid goodbye to her crush and went back to mybitch and of course, spread the details.. the details na d pa jud ingon ana ka-seryoso ang iya crush sa iya uyab kay he flirted with me big time:)

"Mybitch.. i did it for you... coz i love you sooo.. suportaan tika nia.. hhmmm yeah, he flirted with me but ek ek ra to oi.. nothing serious so no worries.. dako pa jud kau ka pag-asa nia:) pweti bya u kesa iya gf na soo whatever..haha "

so pixes na tah.. yipeee!!!

this pic, taken by mybitch... flowers for you our loved-ones.. dead loved-ones.. tabangi intawon ming mga buhi pa niining kalibutan nga napuno sa kalbaryo

mybitch and I... at 7 am... "mangatulog na kha ta oist"

Candles... blue and red.. alai yellow.. huhuhu



we are tyring to hold the sun to brighten our future..



smile.. our hearts are bleeding but we still smile..:)


wala lang.. feeling important.. hihi




mybitch and I.. trying to capture the beauty behind us



i am searching for something underneath while mybitch is trying to break free



we are walking far away from all of you... gukora mi.. joke





Ang hubog ug ang dli hubog kay coke ra gi-drink sa aq best bitch


how i wish that i could freeze the moment..

gipurong-purongan sa mga maidlot na tunok..

commercial models sa shampoo na non-existent coz walai namalit.. haha..

Mybitch and I had fun on that day........... 'Till then.. Wuv Yah so mybitch..:)

WHAT MY NAME MEANS

Got this from blogthings.com and i don't think this best describes 'me' although naai mga nasakto sad.. hihihi.. oh well, might as well post this on my blogsh*t....

So according to blogthings, Carmelle means.............

What Carmelle Means

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily. You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind. A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way! You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Whatever!! duh!! for me, Carmelle is my alter ego na dapat i-mental hospi... end of story..!