WANT TO KNOW MORE ABOUT ME? (2)

1) What is the hardest feeling for you?
> lying to yourself..



2) What do you want to receive on your birthday?
> anything as long as it is heartily given.. (sunflowers will be greatly appreciated..hek hek)



3) Reach your hand out to the right. What do you touch?
> my officemate's stuff



4) What time did you sleep last night?
> what in the hell..! i wish i sleep at night... I am a night owl.. pwede sad bampira...:) since walang tulogan ang show...



5) What's the wallpaper on your computer?
> Wu Zun



6) What can you hear besides the computer?
> agents taking calls



7) Do you agree to the saying "to forgive is to forget?"
> no.. better say "to forgive is after the nth cursing"



8) When was the last time tears started to roll down your cheek?
> i am a crybaby.. i cry everyday, sometimes for no reason at all.. yeah, m one freak-oo



9) What/Who makes you happy?
> only one thing.. m not gonna tell..



10) What makes you frustrated?
> this question makes me frustrated because i am now thinking about those sad things..



11) What are your favorite books?
> skip.... so many..



12) What would you like to have right "at this moment" which seems totally impossible?
> to be married to... WTF! it is impossible... why think about it Carms? You really are a masochist..!!! i hate you Carms..!



13) Who will you turn to if you have a huge problem?
> myself and those dead ones... cemetery.. here i come...!!



14) What's your favorite song at the moment?
> I'm gonna love you - Jen love Hewitt & It's in the way - Clay Aiken



15) What was the last song that kept ringing on your mind last night before you sleep?
> I'm gonna love you - Jen love Hewitt & It's in the way - Clay Aiken



16) What was the best event that happened last year?
> Who knows? I am a walang paki person...



17)Where have you been today?
> office... office... office... office... can this get any better??



18) Last thing you ate?
> now that i think about it.. i haven't taken my break yet..!



19)wHo are you with ryt now?? are they cool?
> pA Asu wholesome bitches - BRATz..... they are the coolest people ever...!!!!



20) Have you gone to the beach just w/ your buddies?
> i think all normal ones do.. so that means I am normal... yippeee...!!!



21) Do you love sunsets?
> i can die watching it...



23) What are your wishes for your birthday?
> I am never fond of wishing coz i have learned that it is better not to wish for anything to avoid pain... You'll just have to pray and expect for the pinaka-bati...



24) Who do you wanna be w/ on the day of your birthday?
> I wanna be with those ones very special... There are certain degrees on how special the people i consider as special in my life... and some of them i know, they are very much willing to be wit me.. sadly though a lot of them are only 2nd, 3rd, 4th on my list... the ones on the 1st degree never care.. i bet my existence can be erased right at this very moment without them noticing my absence afterwards... such a pity..



25) Have you ever felt that you've been taken for granted?
> duh...! like every waking moment... 99% of the time i think... yeah.. such a loser, but at least m trying to live this life.. trying to love still..



26) thing/s you regret?
> My beloved bitchy Feebee Tinks answers "the huge mistakes came back with huge lessons so i don't think i'll ever regret them. sorry! " --- yeah she is right but then past mistakes are past mistakes.. they cannot be undone and no matter how you gained something from it, you can never relive the moment and i guess that is what hurts the most so until there is still a glimmer of hope left to alter the misery you are in, one should grab the moment to change it.. or it will be lost forever.. but then again, this is easier said than done...



27) Is there anything else you want to do besides answering this survey?
> i don't know.. I am really tired.. get some sleep maybe..



28) What's the most important sentence/s that lingers in your mind right now?
> What Quan said in Hana Kimi... "I do not know whether to continue to lie or reveal my lie to everyone..." It hit me badly that i posted it on my friendster profile and on my unmasked blog... He is referring how painful it is to be in love with someone secretly...



29) cookies n' cream or double dutch?
> definitely cookies n' cream...



30) Chocolate cake or brazo de mercedes?
> Chocolate Cake... I am like a chocoholic:)



31 Who's the last person you texted?
> My beloved bitches Feebee Tinks and the rest of my bitches pA Asu Dattebayut Sakura-Nerak, Mah Shei, Jinx and G... [They are taking calls right now while i am answering this survey thingy...:) ]



32). What was the last text message you received?
> From one of the agents confirming something regarding work...



36) how do you feel right now?
> I love the person who's currently in my life but i am having doubts... I want to commit badly but that part of me.. that unconscious part of me wants to let go... wants to be with someone else... does that make me a bad person?



37) whats your plan next week?
> hhmmm... i plan to have a vacation... free from work... sadly i can't... no work means no pay and i can't afford to avail that leave with pay churva because i know damn well workloads will be 10 x bigat... huhuhuhu



38) missing someone?
> yes.. but it doesn't matter... that person surely is not missing me.. so i'll just have to pour my time to this other person who happens to give a damn..



39) what's her/his role in your life
> skip.. the more i dwell on these questions, the more i think about that person and the more it hurts...



40) Have you hurt somebody in the past?
> I don't know... maybe coz sometimes i am one insensitive freak... my deepest apologies to whoever that is...



41) the person who loves u most or the person u love most?
> skip... or my heart would be totally broken.. don't wanna think about any answers regarding this...



42) in a relationship, rebound dating, single, whatever?
> right now, my status is "in a relationship" and i am giving 100% loyalty and devotion to this relationship but like i said, i am still having doubts... (i am glad He is not into friendster, blogs or other internet churvaness or else he will strangle me for this entry..In all fairness to him, I do love him, i do.. because he loves me truly..)

(heart in question)