ON DECEMBER 18, 2008

It was July 2008.. he happens to tex.. i was like "duh! another unregistered number.. i bet this is some low life again who has got nothing to do.. na ang atik is, pwede ta meet? ew! meet lola nimo.." But as usual, I replied, asking if who the hell he/she is (i guess that's the beauty or the nightmare of signing up as a plan user.. you can call and tex anytime you want.. maka-reply jud ka kai naa kai load for always..)
..then that was it.. we start texin because he texd that he knows me and that i happen to know his face so I decided to reply.. I was like "ah okay.. kaila man diay xa nako, kakita na sad daw ko niya.. and okay ra daw d mag-meet churva.. so quebs, pila ra pag-reply2x.. sa mahutdan lang sa load..hhmm.. cge kasukol ka?! unlimited q always.."
Days pass and then the anonymous texmate reveals himself.. "ahh, he is right, familiar jud diay ko niya.." I am a girl and it is not hard to tell if a guy likes you or not. I could tell that he does like me because he told me so from the very start and he always tex. But when he starts to speak about deeper feelings, I never let myself believe in what he says because "wala pa man gani ni xa kaila nako.. maybe ganahan xa yep but kana ra kutob, m sure ek ek ra ni iya like any other guys.. I am sure mahilom ra ni xa after 2 months." but then comes the 3rd month and then the 4th and he is still texin.. I happen to have a boyfriend that time so I did not pay attention whenever he says he likes to come and visit or we would hang out (fiesta sa danao, carmen...) but I allowed him to sit beside me at church because I am a bit curious.. that never happened because he said he can't make duol ever.. To be honest, I was like "toinks! nag-duwa2x ra man guro ni xa, kay murag moduol man jud ka if ganahan ka sa tawo.. unsa iya ani gusto, ako ang moduol niya? Ai d best! ambisyoso sad ni xa noh, ako jud paduolon..hmp!" But I just let it pass.. I said to myself "quebs, I don't know you and if you really like me, it is your problem on how to impress me.. suit yourself!"
Then an incident on Macaas fiesta occured. One of my cousies, Berlang saw him get cozy with a girl that he later on confirms as his ex-girlfriend and that they are again 'on' after that fiesta. He apologized to me and to my best bitch Phoebe who bombarded him with frank and hurting messages. I figure "ai, d bitaw sad kami, texmate ra xa na nagparamdam and wala sad mi magkuyog-kuyog so okay ra oi.. life na nia, pasagdaan nato.. after all, he said sorry.. so okay. no harm done! Besides, he is sure that during the days that he makes paramdam, he and the ex are still not on.. so I accepted his apology because at that point, OA ra kaayo if padakuon pa ang issue.. maayo unta if kami nah kay sunogon jud nako xa, pwede sad himuon Echegaray..hihi"
We still keep on texin after that but his messages somewhat shifted to "just-a-friend" mode, no paramdam thingy na "aba, dapat lang, naa na baya xa gf.. kabagaan ang show if magparamdam pa xa ug sige.."
..then something happened that made me decide to break up with my boyfriend.. I realized that ours will never work so why bother to make it work?! We did break up and this texmate of mine, i don't know if it is fate, but he is really in the right place at the right time - "nice au iya timing.. coz if he stops texin me na after months of just being mag-texmate.. then he wouldn't have been around when my boyfriend and I broke up" He texd one day saying that he wants to make duol because he still wants to, that he wants us to talk... and it did happen.. I allowed him to drop by "ai sus, mahilom ra jud ni xa cguro if makastorya na nako.." and we did talk for the first time.. I don't know about him but it was not uncomfortable for me (or maybe baga lang jud q ug dagway..)
"mahilom ra jud ni xa cguro if makastorya na nako.." I was proven wrong...............
I can't forget that day because I was very nervous I could explode at any minute (mahadlok man gud jud q ana nilang Mama gud) - Nov 18, 2008 - He came to our house to prove to my parents that he is for real. My parents were there and I have made it clear to him beforehand that there is a big chance my parents won't approve of him (they are usually like that.. very judgmental) but he still decided to go. I seem to appear very calm but inside I was dying because my parents' especially my Mother's questions towards him were very penetrating and personal that I almost feel sick. I could tell he is not comfortable but the event ends anyway like any other and i thought after that he won't pursue me anymore because of my parents but he still does and I start to like him more and I was beginning to appreciate what he does for me and what he tells me..
And then he confirms he breaks up with the girl..
...and now it is December 2008.. I guess it is already a bit long for his courtship thing since it started on July 2008.. It seems like he is for real, he was able to prove to my parents that he somehow cares.. he is polite in dealing with them and he respects me.. I really admire a guy who is not scared to meet my parents and who fights for me.. I guess there is no need to make him wait.. not that I am not worth the wait:) :) but I just don't think there is a need to make him suffer for my answer and my answer is 'YES' why the hell not? And I guess that he is worth fighting for because that is what he does for me... and he said 'no letting go' so I won't...

"so to you, you know who you are..
this blog is not a private one
but the ones who know about the existence of this blog
(even if I posted the link on my friendster profile)
are those I care, those I consider as real friends..
so they are my witnesses that on December 18, 2008...
I'll make it official..
there will be 'us'..
from that day forward, you can call me your girlfriend,
you may shout it to the whole world or keep it silent until somebody asks..
it is your call,
bottomline is.. kita na, dec18.. okies..
and since you really wanna make the change for me,
I do hope that I could somehow help you make that change..
I do hope that I can bring out the best in you..
I wanna see you become the man that you ought to be
I sure hope you won't disappoint me and I hope you will live up to your promises... don't make me cry or my beloved bitches will hunt you down:)"