Just a few more hours to go and I'll be a year older. I think I have to “clean up my closet”.. as Girlthing puts it “now it’s time that I say my last goodbye coz there is no more tears to cry” I feel so weak but alive.. crazy but sane.. empty but happy.. are there such feelings all in one time? Maybe I am just being optimistic.. scared of becoming jaded. Or maybe I am just demented.. nyahahaha..! I wonder what’s in store for me this year.. I have never even imagined of becoming older than 23.. I want to stay 23 as much as possible but I hate to break it to myself.. I can’t stay 23…….. Come to think of it, I don’t even know why I like to be 23 forever.. What’s with 23? Maybe because Plumb’s Real is so damn nice.. hihi..Seriously, I think I like being 23 because that was the time I experienced ‘awakening’ (that he’s no Prince Charming and that I am most definitely not Cinderella and that in the real world, there aren’t always fairy tale endings [or beginnings for that matter] and that any guarantee of ‘happily ever after’ must begin with me) Well, I guess I’ll just have to embrace life as it is.. enjoy it while I still can.. the question is do I want to? Of course I should… like I said, any guarantee of ‘happily ever after’ must begin with me…
To my parents:
Tanchu! I hope you would be more understanding..hihi.. Even if you can never read this blog of mine (you don't even know this exists..hihi), even if I say nothing and even if I seem to always go my way, i hope you can feel that I love you..and that I can even offer my life for you both any time of day.. If you would only try and listen what i don't say (because what you hear is just my pride talking..), if you would only see right through me, (coz i act differently from what I really feel) then you'll know that my one wish is for me to become someone you both can always be proud of.
To my BBF:
Ambot nnu..keep on bitchin..thanks for the laugh
To that one guy - my bf:
Thanks for making me smile, for giving me courage and for your patience..and regarding Sinulog night incident, thanks for the gesture, really love the flowers eventhough they are roses and not sunflowers :). Appreciate it greatly. You are right, I seem to not know what i was texing. hihi. And m glad because I seem to make you smile too.. i'll always be here for you as long as you will let me.
To my parents:
Tanchu! I hope you would be more understanding..hihi.. Even if you can never read this blog of mine (you don't even know this exists..hihi), even if I say nothing and even if I seem to always go my way, i hope you can feel that I love you..and that I can even offer my life for you both any time of day.. If you would only try and listen what i don't say (because what you hear is just my pride talking..), if you would only see right through me, (coz i act differently from what I really feel) then you'll know that my one wish is for me to become someone you both can always be proud of.
To my BBF:
Ambot nnu..keep on bitchin..thanks for the laugh
To that one guy - my bf:
Thanks for making me smile, for giving me courage and for your patience..and regarding Sinulog night incident, thanks for the gesture, really love the flowers eventhough they are roses and not sunflowers :). Appreciate it greatly. You are right, I seem to not know what i was texing. hihi. And m glad because I seem to make you smile too.. i'll always be here for you as long as you will let me.
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