I received a text message from one of my first cousins.. the one who is having the same age as me and at that moment i was really tired because of work but when i read her message, i seemed to have gained my energy back.. my heart felt like being squeezed and right there and then, i missed my Mom so much that i want to go home and say "Ma, labad q sa ulo and i never get to say this kay corny ra but i love you so and i can't live without you and Papa."
Her text went like this:
"Just about to close my eyes then i realized I missed her -- A lot actually. And i am again reminded of her warmth and smile. You are damn lucky to still have your Mom. Thank God for it."
It was a simple message yet, the pain is there and you can actually feel it. We are super close not just because we are born of the same year but also because we are both 'unica ihas'. We call each other 'Agaw'. She calls me Agaw Carmcy and I call her Agaw Blessie. We are also alike in a lot of ways. We are both smart, sexy and pretty.. nyahahaha.. seriously, we are both hopeless romantics and we love writing... poems, love stories plus we both go out with different guys but is ever loyal basta naa nai sugton, pakamatyan pa gani, hilakan ug pila ka balde.. joke.. the only difference between us is she will move heaven and earth for love unlike me na mo-give-up dayon.. nagdako lang ang huna-huna. She said even a freight train could not stop me when my heart tells me to do it.. to fight for it.. but actually, that description best describes her.. it does not describe me at all.. coz i am a freakin scaredy-cat when it comes to fighting for love. If i can feel that the guy is hesitant towards me.. tumpak! Mourong, makigbuwag jud dayon ang show.. I always need assurance and i need that the guy lay all his cards before i will fight with him.. i need to know he is for real first before fighting with everything that i have unlike her.. idol jud ka na q Gaw..! You are never scared... Between us, i am the one always saying 'wala koi paki' but i do.. i really do especially when people's piercing eyes seem to judge me and i can somehow feel my partner's grip has weakened.. but my Agaw Blessie?? Naks.. she will say nothing but she does what satisfies her.. quebz to those f*ckin lunatics na walai lain mahimo except to make libak and all.. I witnessed how she loves her Paul-man so much.. how she fought for him.. how she was able to marry him in the end and to have his oh-so-lovable baby... most of all, how she made him into a stronger man worthy for her love.. Her constant love chaged Paul so much.. Her love is amazingly unique, theirs is a lovestory fit to become a blockbuster romantic movie.
My only wish for her is.. May she with Paul, their little angel Niko and their upcoming baby receive all the blessings and happiness because she deserves it so much. She is a good person, a great cousin and a true friend.. Mas psyc pa gani ni xa na q kay mas mau ni xa modala ug counseling churva... plus, this woman is really smart.. love ra jud iya weakness.. but then, a person's weakest point is also his strongest..:)
Gaw, i love you.. muah! I know we do not see each other like we used to (talk about how work makes our butts busy) but know that I am always here when you need me. I am one call away! You are a mother now and a good one too.. Your Mom is with HIM already, in a peaceful place and i know she is proud of you and is always watching over you, smiling and saying "she's my baby and i am lucky GOD made me her Mother" for every achievement you have. I hope I will become stronger like you.
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